Relieved

Gosh I can't believe how fast time is going now. I wish it would just slow down a little. I think time is going so fast because of a few things, all of them I am relieved about.

Angus is now 12 weeks old. And he is sleeping through. Did you read that bit? I"ll shout it for you "HE IS SLEEPING THROUGH!". I am so happy about this. Charlotte didn't come close to sleeping through until she was nearly 12 months old, and even then it took a few months before I could say I had a full night sleep. So for Angus to be doing it now is heaven. He has been doing it for a few weeks although he varies it a bit. Most nights he is down by 7 then up around 6, but he can be up anywhere between 4 - 7 (and the earlier it is he has a feed, then goes back to sleep). He isn't a great sleeper during the day but I'm still getting a few good naps out of him.

It also appears that his reflux is settling down. There are some days where he doesn't vomit at all. However just as I begin to think that it is stopping, he spends half a day covering me in puke. But it is nowhere as bad as Charlotte ever was. And the difference is so obvious. Apart from the sleeping, he likes to lie on the playmat and grab his toys. He will smile, and just these past few days, giggle. I could never leave Charlotte alone or lying down as she would just cry and cry. At the moment he is lying on his playmat and I can hear him cooing away. So divine.

One other thing I am relieved about is Angus's hypospadias http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypospadias. We knew about this from birth as it is a congenital abnormality. Initially the paediatrician said that he might need a minor corrective procedure. Then at the 6 week checkup he thought he would need his urethra reconstructed and referred us to a surgeon. While it was still a minor procedure, the thought of my baby undergoing surgery was just awful. We saw the surgeon last week and we are so relieved that he doesn't need surgery. The surgeon thought that it was mild, and that as long as his aim is straight (which given my showering the other day I think it is), then no surgery is required. He does have two openings for his urethra though so it might even be a party trick when he is older.

But it felt odd as we were leaving. The specialist was on the side of town where the IVF clinic and my OB were. Driving home I realised that we don't need to go to any health professional in the foreseeable future. We don't need to find money for medical costs, we don't need to think about any health issues. That stage is finally over. I am still sad that that also means no more babies, but hugely relieved that we can start to move on with our lives.

Lastly I am relieved that the sickness that has plagued us these last few weeks seems to be abating. Last week all of us except Angus were on antibiotics which was very unpleasant. Even though Angus is sleeping through, I am still on the weary side. And being sick just wasn't helping. This weekend I am hoping that we can have a nice day out as a family as there has been a bit of tension in this household lately (largely due to James working stupid crazy hours!).