Being Henny Penny

At the moment I feel a bit like Henny Penny - waiting for the sky to fall in.

After being so unwell last weekend, by Tuesday I was definitely improving. I think it was a combination of the antibiotics kicking in and also having the reassurance from my specialist that it wasn't directly from the radiation.

By Thursday I was feeling fantastic. Not just good - fantastic! I went to the gym and did an intense workout (although I got my max. heart rate up a little too high so maybe it was too intense). I didn't even have to have a nap that afternoon. Friday I was still feeling good so I went to see a friend although that was very tiring.

Saturday I was feeling tired again and I noticed that I had a slight burn on my forehead. I had a spot about the size of a 20 cent piece which had blistered. It was a little bit sore - like a mild sunburn and it has eased with some burn cream. But it brought me back to reality. Today I have been feeling quite sick but I still managed to go to the gym and a trip to the shops. It was while we were at the shops that I got hit suddenly with fatigue; I could hardly walk one step in front of the other.

I know I am on tenterhooks, just waiting for the next awful symptom to hit. This week is when I expect the fatigue to increase. In the meantime, I am trying to take one day at a time which is why I'm relishing in the good days. I can't begin to express how good I felt on Thursday. My mind was clear, I was only a little bit dizzy, and nowhere near as tired. It has given me hope that at the end of this I will be back to my normal self. Not that I really know what that is since it has been over 5 years of IVF, yucky pregnancy, newborns, and blobby.